February 16

I am nearing the end of my twenties. I really can not find much JOY in this. I try and try.
If I think about it too much the tears start. Why all of a sudden is it so hard to get older? You look forward to birthday's until about 27 and then you realize WOW, I'm that much closer to......! I need another five years to accomplish what I wanted to accomplish in years 20-29. I was thrown a few curve balls and that set me off track and the next thing I know I'm staring the next age in the face....sorry, I just can't say THAT number yet.

Is it because I didn't "have fun"? Or, because I was unable to finish school? I didn't get a chance to be "just married"?  Is it because I enjoyed ages 20-23, 26, & 28 and half of 29? I go through every reason in my mind why I'm clinging to my twenties. I do not enjoy getting older. I do not enjoy watching my girls get older. Sometimes I wish God allowed us a freeze button to let us catch up on what we need to catch up on. Once we were ready we could hit play.

Enough about my getting older woes.

My JOY today was hanging around the house with Abigail. We had no where to be and not much to do (well, housework but that can always wait until tomorrow!) so it was a perfect lazy day! JOY!